Easily and justifiably distracted.

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I've no idea what to write right now. I'm up at three or so in the morning, and I honestly don't know why. I normally don't wake up this early, so why now?

I can't really explain what I'm feeling, but it's been a long time since I've felt it. It's not exactly new, but it's not exactly something I'm familiar with. I don't know, I can't really explain myself right now. Too many thoughts running around. I'm sure it's hard enough reading this blog without trying to figure out what I'm saying. I'm ridiculous, I know.

Imagine me sitting on a bench, with "Sweet Disposition" by The Temper Trap or "Two Weeks" by Grizzly Bear playing. That's how I feel right now. Sort of. Why's this so hard to explain?

I can't write a ditty today. My mind is going off in too many directions to make a concentrated effort on writing one.

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Can three weeks not go by any faster?

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