Myself

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I'm good at driving through memory lane.
Everyone knows me by name.
I wink and smile and ask how everything is going
with everyone I pass by languidly.
But I'm still stuck in the present.
It doesn't matter how many times I go back.
It's something I've come to resent.
What does it matter? The issue's with me.

I'm too busy keeping static,
how I end up being so seemingly nonexistent
to everyone else.
Watch them move forward,
sure and steady steps to a better present
and a better self.
How I wish I could do that myself.

I let the work take me away again,
my body at work, my mind turning a bend
back to memory lane.
So predictable, I always act the same.
And yet here I am in the present.
Why should I bother looking back?
It's something I've come to resent.
And what does it matter? It's no longer part of me.

And yet
I'm too busy keeping static,
how I end up being so seemingly nonexistent
to everyone else.
Watch them move forward,
sure and steady steps to a better present
and a better self.
How I wish I could do that myself.

I can't rightly put how I feel to words
when it comes to getting a grip on time.
And yet, here I am.

I'm too busy keeping static,
how I end up being so seemingly nonexistent
to everyone else.
Watch them move forward,
sure and steady steps to a better present
and a better self.
How I wish I could do that myself.

I wish I could do that myself.
~~~
Cheers

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