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Too afraid...

Certain things in life can lead you to come to some very startling – or not so startling – truths about yourself, about others, or about life in general (heh, “General Life”). Often, these things are not pre-orchestrated or coordinated; you just happen to be at the right time and place to experience it. But sometimes, coordinated activities or events bring out these epiphanies in such shocking clarity you can’t help but wonder if this is part of the coordinator’s plans from the get-go. To be honest, I really wouldn’t blame you if you thought that way – I know for a fact I thought so when I attended the KKP Community-Building event on July 29, 2012, in Mapawa Nature Park. It all seemed rather typical – activities revolved around their goals as a group as well as in their efforts to build bonds between volunteer members. We discussed, we talked, danced, sang, ate, and had more fun than was normal in a regular work-week. But that’s not what got me seeing things clearer than the guy sin...

Feeling

I'm losing feeling somewhere deep down  in the pit of this heart - below the water, cold and abrasive. The diamond-shine of this shard falls further down, covered in frost. All I do is watch it sink into a dark, awful abyss. There is no raw feeling, no awareness that  I've lost out  somehow... I hear the heart beating, at first passionate and quick - now fearful and subdued. What is this I'm seeing, this murky mirror in the pit that laughs and scorns me? I look up and see - nothing. No thought passes by, no shudder or sigh, just nothing. I've lost feeling.