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I get carried away with each passing phrase and made-up malady...

I find myself going between positively content and depressingly contemplative. It's taking a toll on me psychologically. Hopefully, it won't spread to affecting my academic performance. I've only recently felt like this a little over three or so days ago. It's not enough time to see any lasting effects but one can never be too careful. In a previous entry, I had hoped that the workload would not increase. It has. But it's tolerable and not quite yet at the 'overwhelming' stage. I find that to be a relief. Nothing says overworked than a student staying up several nights in a row trying to finish projects and assignments that teachers tend to overload their students with, in an attempt to tackle everything in one sitting. Which gives me reason to call for some practicality. In real life, I'm sure one isn't expected to do more than he or she can handle. Or is that my idealism speaking? Not much else to talk about today, fortunately. Hopefully th...

Envy

Hello again, I guess. I won't pretend the past is past. Not over you yet. Not over you yet. I think I'm trying too hard to get your attention Did I ever mention the hours spent that I've forgotten in the wake of the worst break-up of my life? Does nothing go right anymore? Can't stop thinking of you though I've got someone new in my life. Wanna get over you get over you getting over me tonight... I think I'm trying too hard to get your attention Did I ever mention the hours spent that I've forgotten in the wake of the worst break-up of my life? Does nothing go right anymore? Does nothing shine at night like bright stars over our heads that we stare at while in your bed? Wanna get over you get over you getting over me tonight... I think I'm trying too hard to get your attention but now I can say I've spent enough remembering the worst break-up of my life. Something's going right tonight. Something's going...

Mr. January hard at work...

... or seemingly so. Festival days are over, yet, I've seen fliers about another set of "days" involving a particular person whose name starts with "M". Honestly ladies and gentlemen, do we really need more "off" days in a school year? I'm sure no one's complaining but I honestly think this lax attitude in the institution will handicap the students in the long run. As for now, well... there's nothing much more to be done. Work doesn't register well in my mind. When I start working, I work. Thinking about it brings images and audio, but trying to express it on paper doesn't seem to work the same way. Unless I wanted to write a short story about the time I was working on Adobe Illustrator CS4 for a small project, but then, who would actually want to read something like that? I'd stick with images and audio. I've recently acquired two albums by Motion City Soundtrack. "I Am the Movie" and "Even if it Kills ...

Yet.

All that I've come to want lies somewhere where I can't see it.            I can't find it yet. People remind me of what I usually say,                       that is, I'll find it someday                                                - her - ugh, I just can't seem to put it in words that'll do my thoughts justice.                                Just this once, can't I speak coherently? God save me. I'm losing focus.                   Will she ever notice me?             Who's she? Goodness sakes, I'll settle with not knowing -                      at ...

Tourist attraction.

I appreciate festivals. They, well, make everything festive. A particular street on any other given day wouldn't merit even a second look - you come and go, you do what you need to. But on festivals, the streets become dance-floors, shops with bright colors, smiling faces, and flooding with memories. How sad that I'm not a part of it all... I walk through and observe, a tourist. It's always the case, whether in Japan, in Chicago, or here in Xavier University. The Xavier Days have been interesting, to say the least. But I have made no significant memories, nothing to make these festival days any different to any other given day in my life. I've passed by acquaintances and exchanged light conversation, but the company of friends I had none. I did  try to put a mark on the festival but my broken cell-phone lucked me out. More on that later. Sounds like the same old story right? I attend some event down here and I'm on my own, always on my own. You must be tired of he...